Twenty Eight Days Later

Almost exactly one moon ago Groupie and I agreed not to see each other for a month, although at the time I felt it was pointless carrying on what we had at all and we should just finish it permanently.

Well, after three weeks or so of absolutely no contact between us, we have started texting each other again, and tomorrow, four weeks to the day since we last met, we plan to meet up for coffee & cake. I must admit it'll be good to see her again, despite everything that's happened I have missed her. She tells me she feels a bit nervous about it all, to which I responded "c'mon, it's 2009 not 1996..."

I've a sneaking suspicion that she thinks we're going to carry on where we left off in March though, and that ain't necessarily so - what happened then happened for a reason after all, and I really am not willing to go through all the bitterness and spite and drama all over again. After all, I have enough issues of my own to deal with, not to mention the fact that if this town was a bit more gay-friendly I'd have been exploring my bi side a bit more (there's always my next solo trip to London though, whenever that may be - heh heh)

Right now I want to just be free and have fun, with no ties to anyone - well, maybe a loose tie or two, but that's about it. But I'm not ruling anything out. I mean, she's told me she realizes she was being hateful and clingy before, so maybe things have changed - we will wait and see.

Regardless, I still think she's beautiful, and I still want to be her friend at least - because as I've mentioned before, she understands me like few others, and we do have over a decade of history and shared experiences to draw on after all.

See you tomorrow, GroupieGirl.