An Unhappy End To An Unhappy Season

It's been a few days - and this is the last day before the alien new year (or, more officially, the beginning of spring and start of the days being longer than the nights again) It's been a hard winter - physically and emotionally - and I'm glad it's over. I feel like I've woken up from hibernation and have more energy to tackle day-to-day life.

And I would like to have done a blog entry or two about what I've been up to - but I just can't get my head together at the moment. Part of this is due to my sleeping cycle becoming totally decoupled from the rest of society (I've been waking up after noon, and going to bed at times ranging between 03.00 and, on one memorable night, 06.00 - just before sunrise). But mainly it's because of what happened last night, and yes, it involves GroupieGirl once again...

We'd had a lovely night - a very lovely night...mmm.... and were snuggled up on the sofa watching this horror film from New Zealand called "The Tattooist" which was on Sky Box Office (pay-per-view) And everything went really well, right up to the very end of the evening when I was preparing to walk her home. A little comment was taken totally out of context - and it led to things being said that makes me just not want to be with her anymore. She's got some really major issues about certain things and I'm really not sure about whether or not I want to see her again. I know I've been having doubts about this for some time now, but I really thought we'd worked things out. It seems we haven't.

But that's not something I want to think about just now, still less write about. And so, instead, I'm going to play a bit of Rock Band for a bit, and then maybe have a shower (and another go with the Veet - I'm beginning to see why it takes women so long to get ready for a night out) and then maybe head out into the town to forget my worries for a while. It is alien new year's eve after all...

And when I'm on Rock Band, here's one of the songs I'll be drumming to - the last time I was out they played this on the video jukebox, and I smiled to myself as I subconsciously found myself keeping the beat like in the game...

RADIOHEAD - CREEP
(from the album "Pablo Honey", 1992)